Bachelor alum Madi Prewett recalled pushing “so many boundaries physically” before getting “clarity” in her purity journey.
“My parents told me the importance of keeping your body for God and for your spouse and the importance of pursuing purity,” Madi, 29, said during the Monday, June 23, episode of her “Stay True” podcast. “That had been modeled and that had been briefly talked about.”
Her big takeaway growing up was “do not have sex,” but that led to other questions in her mind.
“The question marks [were] around everything else,” she said. “What about all the other stuff? What about porn and what about just crossing a little bit of lines with your boyfriend?”
She added, “That’s where I didn’t have clarity. Those were the gray areas of this whole purity thing that I was not clear on, that I was not certain about. Because of that I found myself continuing to push boundaries and continuing to go further than I knew deep down in my heart that I wanted to go or that I knew I should go.”
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Madi explained that “I’m not having sex” was her excuse to continue to push these boundaries.
The former reality star got candid during the podcast episode about her experience with sexual sin — which has “been a struggle” she experienced since her early teens.
“We’re going to tie in why purity matters to God, why holiness matters to God, why that’s a call for the children of God,” she said, noting that the conversation would focus mainly on porn and masturbation.
“Thankfully, by the grace of God and by the power of Godly community and people around me, I have been free from porn and masturbation for — I don’t even know — 10 years,” Madi told listeners. “But that was something that enslaved me and marked me for so long.”
When she was 13 years old, Madi recalled starting to get “curious” about sexuality.
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“I had already had moments of being curious about things and having certain feelings or wondering certain things or fantasizing about certain things. I had not told that to anyone,” she said. “I went over to a friend’s house and her parents weren’t around and she turned on this show that was extremely inappropriate.”
It was at that moment Madi “started feeling things that I had never felt before” — like “desire.” She was only able to “break free” when opening up about her feelings to other people.
“Anytime you live in secret, it’s only going to create more sin and it’s only going to create more shame because that’s where the enemy thrives,” Madi added.
