Khloé Kardashian has recalled the emotional showdown with ex-husband Lamar Odom that ultimately signalled the end of their seriously troubled marriage.
Speaking to motivational speaker Mel Robbins on the Wednesday, January 29 episode of her Khloé in Wonderland podcast, Kardashian, 40, opened up about the heartbreaking conversation with Odom that propelled her to file for divorce in 2013, revealing that she finally realized she cared more about his basketball career than he did.
“I remember, I was married and my ex-husband had a drug addiction,” she said. “And I knew that his addiction always heightened — he was in the NBA — and his addiction always heightened when he was in the off-season, cause idle time is the devil’s playground. I remember he was asked to go to Team USA, if I remember correctly, and I was begging, ‘Please, please go to Team USA’ and I was pushing, and I remember he just looked at me and said, ‘You can’t want it more than I do’.”
Following a whirlwind romance of just a few weeks, Kardashian and Odom, now 45, married in 2009, but it wasn’t long before infidelity, addiction and numerous other scandals took over their relationship. Despite Kardashian’s best efforts to help Odom battle his demons, ultimately they had to split.
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“I remember when he said, ‘You can’t want it more than me’ and ‘I don’t want it’ — it was so profound,” Kardashian added. “It’s so silly, ’cause I know that. But I wanted it so badly, because I wanted to help him and to get him to feel the motivation and feel good, but he just wasn’t in that place. It took me a long time to get to, then I had to file for divorce. That was a very pivotal moment in my life because I remember that statement being like…”Yeah, you’re right. I can’t want your life more than you’.”
The divorce was finally signed off in 2016 — after Odom’s near-fatal 2015 overdose.
Thankfully, these days Odom is in a much better place, even founding a chain of addiction treatment centers. He also popped up on the season six trailer of The Kardashians, sparking rumors of a reconciliation with Khloe, but later revealed on The Kyle And Jackie O Show that “it would be a blessing just to be her friend.”
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On her podcast, Kardashian also talked about her other famously troubled relationship, with ex Tristan Thompson, and her decision to allow him to be in the delivery room as she gave birth to their daughter True in 2018, just days after learning he had been unfaithful.
“I remember when Tristan had an affair, it was public and I gave birth 48 hours later,” she said. “People were like, ‘Do you want him in the hospital room when you’re giving birth?’. And it was my first baby, and I said, ‘I do, and we’re all going to pretend,’ because of course I had to have all my siblings in the room and my mom.”
Ultimately, she wanted True to know that her dad was in the room when she was born. “I said, ‘We’re all…it’s gonna be hard for you guys, but let’s all act like this didn’t happen, because my daughter’s going to see this home footage one day, and I don’t want her to ever see…’. I was thinking for my daughter, True.”
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She added: “I get sad if I ever see myself [back then], because I can tell I’m blank, and it’s an out of body experience. I just went into autopilot, and I just went into, ‘I’m not here.’ I was not present, but my body was there. I gave birth, I did what I had to do, but it was for her.”
Kardashian and Thompson also share son Tatum, 2.
